I started a new job this year. It’s called a 9-5 even though I resume 7.30am every day 😂
This was actually not the plan for this year. I experienced a few knockouts that dealt with my self-esteem. I come dey ask myself say shey na me be this? Na me dem knak NQ like this? Na me dem talk to like this? I can’t even promise to write about it. The happiness that spiraled quickly to sadness then anger and misunderstanding and folks saying words they can’t ever take back. e still dey do me like film trick but we what? We muoovee!
This was actually not the plan for this year. I experienced a few knockouts that dealt with my self-esteem.
Actually, I didn’t move. I cried and cried like no man’s business and after one particular knockout, I resumed work the next week. What I currently do (I’ll share later) is a long ago dream but not for this year at all. I’m blessed to have it now and I’m giving my all to learning and becoming an expert in this field.
Fast forward to few days into work…
After each work day, I barely have words left. I remember the first few months my Dad used to be worried that I was no longer talking at home. My Mom could barely get a conversation with me. I knew I was winding down but didn’t know if it’s a good thing or not. I’m not usually a talker at home but I talk about my day and how everything went down – if my folks wanted to hear it or not 😂
Sooooooooooooo, I wasn’t talking. Parents were worried. I didn’t think much of it until I noticed that I stopped writing about work. Ha fam! Writing helps me unpack my mind and deal with whatever emotions I may be feeling about anything.
I really enjoy what I do – working with children on the ASD spectrum. I still do not have much words to describe or talk about it but writing about this helps a lot.
Last night, my parents were around and for the second time since March I talked about a little of what I do and how each response or reaction makes me feel. As I talked I watched their faces – a mixture of light and sighs. At midnight, I felt their hands on my head and shoulders speaking to the One who gave me to them, asking for wisdom, favour and direction and so many more slumber didn’t let me figure out.
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See ya! ❤️